Fire & Ice

In marriage , there is always a person that have to be the Ice

We both cannot be the fire as it will flame up and make situation more worse.

Day by day , the journey of my marriage is  not easy

People say the first few years of the marriage is the hardest of all ..

I agree.

Nearly 6 months of my marriage, 

There is the good times and the bad times and the miserable times.

Really.. Miserable , but at the end of the day,

You are married to the person love of your life.

I couldn't go far being n getting upset or angry towards him for long.

The feeling of wanting to be close and clingy and the hugs also at the urge .

And now , when I am carrying your child, Our child, in my tummy

I couldn't be more happy and thankful

And my love towards you always will be in my heart

Just don't keep hurting my heart aite.

I love You

I love Us

I love Our Child

Through Think & Thin

We Will Get Through This Life Together .

Puasa belum lagi but aku & suami da pilih colour baju Raya for this year.

Korang semua da pilih?

At first suami aku nak colour Grey, 

but ended up pakcik dia punye family pun will pakai Grey.

So we decide to not be in the same colour as this year aku 1st day raya with his side.

and we chose colour................

For me, aku nye baju da ada , since last year aku main beli pasal lawa

Taktau pulak ended up that suami choose Emerald Green.

In shaa Allah , kalau panjang umur , next year raya baru la pakai Grey, 

By that time In shaa Allah with baby sekali 

Amin.

Hey Blog,

Always been On & Off with updating the blog.

So... Where shall I start?

Hmmm...

Since today is the 16th May 2017, let me give you a little update of myself .

I am ...

- 24 years old this year

- someone's wife

- 4 months pregnant

- currently with NO work 

- having my usual ups & downs in life as always..

But am for sure that I am more MATURE & WISE with my thoughts of life.

Recently, I am diagnosed with Thalassemia. It is a blood disorder.

Obviously, the news SHATTERED my heart 

and it scared me to death worrying if it would affect my child.

As time goes by, i began to let it go and just be positive.. 

Knowing whatever happens, Allah knows best.

Still waiting for the final result but no news for now.

Life after marriage is sure a struggle, 

I agree with what others said that it is a WHOLE NEW WORLD

It is hard to pleased everyone, 

You are no longer single where knowing how to take care of yourself

but now its more like everyone around you.

I am Grateful for all the barriers YOU gave me Allah,

I know You know best.

Therefore help me to guide myself.

I am your weakest servant.

I disobey you numerous of times.

But I know you are always here for me no matter what.

Well... Sorry for whining so much.

P.S. sorry if the picture above of my curtain seems like a pocong or a horse. Lol.

;and today I become someone's wife

Woahhh.. Last I updated was on 17 Aug 2016 and now is 23 Jan 2017.

Just how fast things changes between these 2 dates.

Moving on from Mr. Fantasy, 

Loving my past moments with my dear colleagues, 

and now embracing my moments to soon be someone wife.

Tons of shit & diamonds happened 

but

Im glad to where i am today. (i hope)

In Shaa Allah.

Again today, when i'm not thinking about you, 

suddenly someone open up a topic about you to me

" Fauzul amacam ? " " da tak message message lagi? " 

Then 1 answer came to my mind, you getting more alim and 

realise im someone fiancee and dont wanna bother and 

dont want to make my fiancee jealous.

Well if thats the reason , im gg to accept it . 

Though really I waited n waited every single day for some notification from you.

But now thats over, I shall move on.

Even you dont know this but yah .. 

:) 

Marriage is not some Fairytale. It is Love, Selflessness, 

Patience, Tolerance and enduring the hard times together.

#quote

#dawah_deen

"I dont wanna think about you, 
but my mind just seems to not listen to me"

"As much as I try, it just not working. 

Slowly I hope it will fade."

Hey there Mr. Fantasy.

Didnt know that you kinda stalk me and read my journal in my 2nd acct .

You read all my poems that I posted there and thanks you to you remind me of the beautiful memories I had 

even the sad ones too but I could say that I moved on from those.

And yes, the poem I wrote years ago when I was in Sec Sch days about my late grandma 

is still and will always be my fav

Thanks for the compliment about it, 

you felt when you read it and wanna read more. 

I appreciate that.

You make me wanna write more poems ,

Maybe not now, for the time being quotes only.

Again, thank you!