Have i had enough?

So here i am crying ,seating at the jerks place and just wonder if i had enough of this. Obvisiouly he wont let me off his side n i cant stand being on his side. He just made his wrong move n i did my wrong move too and it put me on a shame stand and i deserve this. Sure people will be talking about me after this of my stupid behaviour. 

If his ego doesnt stand up first , i wont be  in this position n if wasnt my ego of following it up, i wouldnt be here too. 

I dont know how am i suppose to face his family now too. What the heck am i suppose to do now. 

All i want now is for the family members quickly go out frm this place so i would have a chance to talk to him. Well maybe i should have done that in the first place rather then following up his ego. 

Im just tired of this and i want it to stop. I dont think i want to be with him anymore.