How upsetting of me as i look myself in the mirror n realise of how brutal my attitude is.

Till I could rmbr

So basically this is what he said . I will rmbr it till i could rmbr. You have NO idea how much it hurts. 

Awesome! He just told everything to his auntie so great they know what happen now. I cant get to cover my shit. 

Now EVERYONE will know my shit! Fuck up! I just hate everything now. I just want him to be out of my life . I just cant stand this kind of shit happen again n i know it will happen again and again . He will go around telling everyone my shit. So fuck up everything. So what if everything happens for its reason and i just cant seems ti accept the reason as the reason is my own shit. 

Go around telling ppl my shit. I hate you n  im not talking to you little bustard. 

Have i had enough?

So here i am crying ,seating at the jerks place and just wonder if i had enough of this. Obvisiouly he wont let me off his side n i cant stand being on his side. He just made his wrong move n i did my wrong move too and it put me on a shame stand and i deserve this. Sure people will be talking about me after this of my stupid behaviour. 

If his ego doesnt stand up first , i wont be  in this position n if wasnt my ego of following it up, i wouldnt be here too. 

I dont know how am i suppose to face his family now too. What the heck am i suppose to do now. 

All i want now is for the family members quickly go out frm this place so i would have a chance to talk to him. Well maybe i should have done that in the first place rather then following up his ego. 

Im just tired of this and i want it to stop. I dont think i want to be with him anymore. 

Dinner with love 😍

Had dinner with my deareast Shazly before he goes back to camp. 

Kesian friday pun kene book in. Hahahaha. Kesian dehlo. 

Handsome kan dia 😘😘😍😍

Kawan dunia akhirat

Obviously she is none other then my dearest princess, fifi!!

No matter how thin n thick, we will always fight our ways together. 

Syukur kepada Allah swt telah membukakkn pintu hati kami untuk memakai hijab. In shaa allah we will berjuang to be a better muslimah. Amin.

Besides shazly the person who always been there for me, fifi the person whi stood up for me for years and never left me behind while others did. She's the only one who stayed, how can I not treasure her. Dia la sahabat dunia akhirat ku! 

The cutest and adorable person yet irritating at times but still love u so much!! 

3years 7months to be..

He always checked up my hp but i dont think he knows that this is my blog. Ha, at least im save. 

Today is the 15th May 2014 and 2 days to go and it will be 3years 7months of dating. 

He really been there for me eventhough he gave me the shits. Someone i could not repay more. Ahhh shazly2. You really do care about me. Always tell me to be careful whenever im in the toilet, always hold me close whenever the floor is slippery, always tell me not to skip my meals and always be there for me when i ask him to. 

You've see the changes from the first day we met up till now. Thank you my sayang.

Just feel like posting a post since you are in my thoughts now. 

Saranghae!! 💙💗

Overthinking

I dont know why i always OVERTHINK!

I really dont want to but i find it hard for me to control and not to think some stupid shits. My face.. Arghhh.. I dont know but seems like getting worse or no improvement.. Hair loss is another problem and i overthink on shazly sides, honestly, i always try to fit in . I always tried.. But not sure if its worth trying.. 

Trying to fit in?? Good idea? Being myself? Arghh. Heck i dont know.. Sometimes i look at myself as a overthinking stress madness women and its killing me inside. How am i suppose to control it.. 

Mix Feelings?? I see..

Read most of my past post all and aught of having maxing feelings.. Weird but.. Well i dont know what to say eventually. About Shazly, CDG and my beloved 4H.. And look at us now.. As for CDG i know for sure u wont even remember me but had fun reading all those stories i had shared. 4H, really love you guys but now you guys dont understand me, I love you guys and really want and wish to meet but I cant, well thats what i guess.. Shazly, hahahah... Wow.. Ups and downs huh, admiring you from begining and look at us now. Nearly 4years together. 

~Time flies, Friends Go, but loyal and true will stay.

Fifi and Shazly are the two I love most!