Fantasy ..

"Putting up high hopes may just pulls you down way beneath."

Thats what I told myself for like the past years

but seems like im falling in the same direction again

I should have known, 

that we are not meant together

You are just there and im just here.

we are only "in soial media"

Just like you said..

Seems funny where most of our conversation felt real

or maybe that was just me

My fantasy just wont come true,

hahaha...

It will just be there 

Stays there

not going any where

It will just be part of my dream.

JUSTIN BIEBER - The Feeling (Cover by Leroy Sanchez & Jessica Sanchez)

Am I in love with you

;or am I in love with the feeling ~

Tick Tock Tick Tock ~

The clock is ticking, reality day by day passes

How scary to know whats going to happen next

Day by day all he was talking about was his work

not even caring about how my well doings.

;and that day by day 

my fantasy which partly my reality began to be more caring

My heart began to juggle

Smiling all the way looking at the messages 

Dear Reality, Dear Fantasy,

Will reality win ? 

Because we already made the deal and plans.

Will he start loving me back and start appreciating me?

Will be start to show more care n concerns?

Will fantasy be the one im chasing for?

Knowing he likes just the opposite of me

but he cares for me, as a pen-pal

He is there for me 

and my well beings.

Or it is just me ?

Reality & Fantasy just wont collide ~

JoJo - Say Love [Official Video]

This is us at our best, and at our worst
And when we speak, does it feel unrehearsed?

Cause where I wanna be is far apart
From where we are, from where we are
And I thought I found the place where we could start
Talk from the heart, talk from the heart

But you just say I'm perfect
Say I'm pretty
Say I'm worth it
But if you really care for me

Say love
I want you to say love
I want you to say love
When I say "love you"
You just say "me too"
But I want you to say love

It feels like we can't get out of first
When we do it's like we're stuck in reverse, oh

Cause where I wanna be is far apart
From where we are, from where we are
And I thought I found the place where we could start
Talk from the heart, talk from the heart

But you just say I'm perfect
Say I'm pretty
Say I'm worth it
But if you really care for me

Say love
I want you to say love
I want you to say love
When I say "love you"
You just say "me too"
But I want you to say love

But you just say I'm perfect
Say I'm pretty
Say I'm worth it
But if you really care for me

Say love
I want you to say love
I want you to say love
When I say "love you"
You just say "me too"
But I want you to say love

I was too confuse to think till what I'm saying seems so wrong..

Well I guess fantasy was just part of reality 

which it is just not physically here. 

I'm always not sure if what I'm saying makes any sense to others 

but it do make sense to me.

You are part of my reality 

But I cant change the fact that we just like a pen-pal now. 

From 2 different countries, neighboring countries. 

;and as much as I would love to meet you and to know you more

I cant, I need to realise that Im someone fiancee 

and getting married in less than a year from now. 

Its just a little too late for me to do that move.

Reality of me getting married to shazly is scary

Honestly, i dont know how it will be

With the trust issues and egos and communication ect.

What can i do. What should i do.

Oh Allah. I hand it over all to you. 

Guide me to the righteous , Ya Allah

Like i said

~ so near yet so far ~

;but again reality is the reality ~

Though as much I want that fantasy to come real, 

I know that just wont happen

My reality is ticking & the time is coming,

'and you are just part of my fantasy, my dreams .

All I could say is,

You are just so close yet so far ~

Northern Aurora Lights ~

Northern Aurora Lights ~

'where the sky is the galaxy spaces

Allah creates just the PERFECT things. 

Somewhere in the Northern area he creates the skies that looks like the galaxy 

Just a peaceful view ~

Guess this would be the places where I could say 

;Where reality and fantasy collide ~ 

in earth

I just want to bring myself there.

Iceland? Denmark ? Canada ? 

Where ever the northern aurora lights will be,

I want to be there too ~

Haaa ! ~~ Dang its been a while ..

So much have change ever since my last post. Where reality and fantasy just not wanting to collide.

I'm engaged ! Who knew ?? Me being someone's fiancée.

Demi Allah, after being engaged, the challenges Allah sent down seems harder and harder.

But I know HE wont sent down the challenges that beyond my capacity!

Alhamdulillah , I will get it through. 

In shaa Allah.

;and where fantasy just seems so near yet so far. ~